Bloody Fucking Hell (Book): In Development

A Collection of Love Poetry by Vanessa Libertad Garcia

BLOODY FUCKING HELL

“Bloody Fucking Hell” is a collection of poetry and essays that chronicle the splendor, torture, and confusion I experienced as a lesbian falling in love with various straight women. Since I “came out” at the age of 18, I’ve only fallen in love three times — each time with a self-identified “straight woman.” The poetry contained in each chapter — of which there are only three — pertains to the girl after whom it is named: “Sonia,” “Adelaide,” and “Lucetta.”

“Bloody Fucking Hell” takes an in-depth look at these intimate, rather distinct, relationships and explores where feminine identity, classifications of love, and roles in friendship blur in soul splitting ways. Although the poetry was written during different periods of my life, I am working to properly compile, edit, and polish the pieces so they may fit the structure of the book in an effortless way. I find myself continuously searching through countless journals, old and new, to properly choose the best pieces for the collection. I will also include some reflective essays and personal drawings in the book, specifically in the “Adelaide” chapter, and possibly a poem Adelaide wrote to me.

Two Excerpts from the book:
The B Job
Killer of Sheep